'The term Pro-ana
is a conjunction of the root pro, which means "in favor of", and a shortened form of the term "anorexia", and refers to a group or subculture that promotes or supports anorexia as a lifestyle choice rather than an eating disorder.' (Thank you Wikipedia).
I recently ventured into the world of the Internet pro-ana. It to me is a strange world. Where I found on observation that the people producing the websites and visiting the forums, were there as a form of empowerment. As I have mentioned before in my 'sizing' post my relationship with this disorder was about control. A form of OCD if you will. When looking at the sites that are out there and seeing the responses they receive it felt that their desire to live that 'lifestyle' was building control in there individual worlds.
I have always been a tad of a perfectionist in my life. Not necessarily in the academic side. Averaging often a C grade but more in my personal life. My Mom calls it a box ticker. My family used to tease me saying, "Maia's making her set-up". This was largely in reference for my need, from a small age, to make myself fit in to my environment. I moved a lot when I was kid and I had moving down to a tee. Within half an hour of being in a new house I would have my room (set-up) done. Everything had a place and that place had a reason. I would from the age of four or five clean my room on Saturdays for fun, yes fun. I haven't changed much. My point for talking about this is that I think that these pro-ana sites are a way of having a perfect set-up. A way to have a place that is under your control. A place that no matter where you are will never change and if it does it's because you changed it.
It is said that people that suffer from eating disorders are characteristically over achievers and perfections. I saw this when visiting these sites. The technology on most was the most recent and advanced. There wasn't a text out of place. I found it really interesting that these worlds created where in a way a symptom for what these people are going through.
I personally feel a tad weird about the whole anorexia as a lifestyle and overall don't agree with what most of the sites are aiming for but that doesn't me I don't understand or feel for those going through this disease.
As I have said before I have a hard time not being drawn to weight issues. It's still a part of my everyday thinking. I understand that this sites are a form of perfection to those who are suffering. Anorexia is a hard thing to let go of. It is comforting, familiar and personal.
I find it weird at first entering a site that was about something I had gone through. I felt weird giving something that I am against hits.